AnyThinG bUt Me

2010-07-06T11:39:00.002+08:00

been quite awhile.

many things happened.

church camp.

went with an open heart.

but there are things tat happened,i wasn't even prepared for.

but i'm glad, everything been resolved.

got back a fren. which i nearly gave up on.

2010-06-03T22:20:00.002+08:00

whoooo.slash is coming.

with coheed and cambria,even better.

30th june!!!

FIREHOUSE..Neil Zaza..

i need to go for both concert!

2010-06-03T16:39:00.003+08:00

went to run at macritchie today.with des and eliot

wen well until the last part.

freaking got chased by a freaking monkey.

and i've nv run so hard,so fast in my life before.

i donno you lahz

i jus guess u really wan me out of your life.

2010-05-29T22:13:00.001+08:00

i really wish we could be frens

instead of all this.

2010-05-28T22:03:00.002+08:00

watched the losers on wed before training.

freaking hilarious.

BUT the guy in specs(chris evans/Jensen[name in movie]) singin journey's Don't stop believing.

pretty awesome.

2010-05-24T09:31:00.002+08:00

y treat me with hostility wen i did nothing at all.

even telling me to get out of your life.

do u hate me tat much?

and being fren is such a hard thing for you

i'm not forcing you if you can't.

2010-05-22T16:14:00.001+08:00

sometimes i wonder if u really wanna be frens
cause the way your treating me, i don think so u wanna be frens
its ur choice.

2010-05-17T07:53:00.000+08:00

oh man.
RIP RONNIE JAMES DIO ):

2010-05-13T06:40:00.003+08:00

everytime you hear my name you go "ugh"

you are the wan havin problems being frens.

the problem lies in you.

so think bout it.

frens or no frens

if u can't,don even bother tryin.

don give excuses like its not easy.

2010-05-08T09:24:00.003+08:00

first week almost over.

super tiring i tell you.

worked the closing shift the whole week.hardly could get any sleep.

wednesday deep purple.NAISE.

but lets hope i can leave early and rush down.

when can u stop pointing fingers at me.

pls don tell ppl u wanna be frens or what.

when our friendship plays no importance in your life.

oh well.

2010-03-07T23:30:00.003+08:00

life's kinda mono now.

been going schl to swim everyday.running in the morning.gyming.

gonna work after kelong trip.gonna start drivin again.

2010-02-12T17:55:00.000+08:00

Tell me about those days you hated me

2010-02-11T22:56:00.000+08:00

You will get what u ask for.

2010-01-22T00:45:00.003+08:00

met gracecheah.jemmy and chris at cityhall.

went funan as jemmy and chris wanna look at laptops

lunch at subway.

den headed to jemmy house to rest abit before heading to grace's house.

play wii all the way to dinner time.

ate a super filling dinner,and talked bout random stuff.

den was home.while jemmy and chris stayed over.

2010-01-15T10:59:00.006+08:00

your words are like knives.

2009-12-23T20:11:00.003+08:00

you really have to sit down and look at yourself.

had a heart to heart talk with a fren.

u keep on telling me you have changed.

tat is bullshit.even ppl say u haven grown one bit.

you are jus the same old person,who has personality of a kindergarten kid in a teenage body.

stop acting so childish like for example.jus cos i'm going sentosa,you don wan to go.

look at the way you act and talk.

and you are jus playin a fool of my feelings.even my fren says so.

if u really did love.u would love for who i am and not jus break up cos i'm boring or wadever.

u like it.u break.srry i'm not your toy.

thanks for making me suffer for 5 years.

u complain so much bout ppl calling you names,you get angry.

wad bout u calling ppl nicknames?don ppl get angry?

sometimes.i wonder u really understand wad ppl feel or ur simply jus ignorant to your surrondings and ppl feelings.

i know your ignorant to my feelings.

and look at the things tat happened recently.

think.y are there ppl pissed off at you.

don push the blame on others.its ur own mistakes.

ask urself y ppl are treating u this way.

i've done mistakes too.and ive questioned myself bout.

i guess its your turn.

if there's anything u wanna say to me.do it in my face.

2009-12-19T03:42:00.002+08:00

u really piss me off.

jus cos of you.u have to destroy ppl's plan of having fun.

because of ur fickle-mindedness.

2009-12-04T15:44:00.003+08:00

you.stop asking me stupid questions.

like how will the sizes be like or wad.

i'm jus doing my job to get all ur tee sizes.

u don wan the tee.i can give it to someone else.

take it or leave it.

how am i suppose to know wad kind of tee's we are getting.

srsly.

"diff top got diff sizing"wth.

i know that lahz.

jus take the size u usually wear and stop making things hard for me.

i'm not gonna know wad tee's we are getting and how the sizing will be like.

i really donno if ur really tryin or not.

srsly.i really wish u could really like me back.

i jus really miss the times we had.

but iguess.u likin me back is impossible.

2009-12-01T22:32:00.003+08:00

the long weekends.

wen for the childrens camp at GB centre.

had so much fun.laughing over stupid jokes.

stayed over at jemmy's house for 2 nights.

first night was chris and me.

2nd night was us 2 plus gracecheah.

wanted to watch paranormal activity.

but the buffering thingy failed.

ohyea.we played LAN. L4D.hah

was really funny.grace and bre controlling one character.

grace did the shooting.bre did the movement.haha.

last day.took amos car back to church with john and gracecheah.

and we nearly died.as we had an amp,keyboard and keyboard stand on our laps.hahah

den we went vivo for lunch.and we hang around at starbucks.

URGH!

2009-11-24T00:30:00.002+08:00

was talking to a fren on the bus.

bout how we met and stuff.

and i jus realised.

how funny it was.but funny in a good way.

and i realised that.the time spent was really worthwhile and stuff.

tats how i feel.

and i kinda miss it. and all.

oh well

i know u don give a eff bout it.

well i guess things have gotten so bad.there's no turning back.

guess we'll jus be ignoreing each other.

2009-10-31T00:46:00.000+08:00

I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out

2009-10-21T23:22:00.002+08:00

damn nice song.
Promise her the moon//mr. big
You don't know what you've got
Till the love is almost gone
This time, yeah she's given up
Still in a state of shock
I should've seen it coming on
It's too late for waking up
Her mind's made up
I know the dream is over
But my heart just can't let go
She's too good to be forgotten
Too good to be true

2009-10-21T09:56:00.003+08:00

schl has jus started.

water polo POL-ITE is haflway thru.

played 2 games already.

won 1,lose 1.

but anyway.sunday was MR BIG concert.

it was awesome.

no matter how hard i try.it will jus be the same out come.

I think sometimes you have to lose someone completely before you can figure out what they really mean to you

2009-10-14T00:25:00.001+08:00

"Life’s funny sometimes. It can push pretty hard, like when you fall in love with someone but they forget to love you back"

life is such.

i jus donno if u'll like me again

2009-10-11T22:21:00.002+08:00

life's kinda sucks now.

schl's reopening

found out tat i have to extend my stay in poly by one semester.

i'm working at udders which is demanding to my body.scoopin ice-cream with an injured finger doesn't help either.

i wanna quit the job.but i donno how to,cos i oni worked for afew weeks oni.

fri.

movie with the rest.500 days of summer

friendly with sajc

girls did pretty well.won 2 out of 2 games

guys did pretty well too

after tat was team dinner.

204.35 bucks on indian food.hahah

sat.

FYP meetin at citylink's starbucks.

den off to queensway to meet jerome.cos he wen to get his eastpak

den ikea with mel and loy.dinner

den off to novena's udders.

sun.

church.

mission trip trg.

den met up with rach chew.

wen window shopping.

den met jireh to go pete's house

oh yea,500 days of summer was really nice.

guess the movie kinda knocked some sense into me.

i really wanna study overseas.

if everything goes fine,will prob settle down there.

2009-09-28T09:19:00.000+08:00

I’m sorry but I’m no good for you. We’re living in two separate worlds, and though I loved the times they intertwined maybe it’s time for me to leave you be. Because I’m no good. I over-analyze, over-think and overreact of the smallest of things. I appear to be some quiet, reserved, really I’m just someone who finds it too hard to open up and talk to people about deeper things. I care too much of what people think of me, I get jealous, my mood swings from one end to the other all the time. I’m not the guy with the looks, personality, I’m not someone anyone would go for. I don’t want to drag you down.

2009-09-23T23:10:00.000+08:00

I want to be able to wake up each morning and not wish you would call me. I want to be able to walk around with a smile and pass right by you without a second glance, without noticing that you never gave me one.

2009-09-21T23:06:00.002+08:00

its jus so hard loving someone

who doesn't even love u back.

eventhough,we have been together once.

doesn't it even bring back memories and stuff.

u nv tell me anything.

if u can't trust me in anything.y like me in the first place.

u go off breaking patchin,den out of the blue,tell me lets be frens.

wad do u take me for.

really.u think by sayin ur sorry.

is gonna take away the pain u put me thru.

i love you still,each time u break.

this is how u treat me?

2009-09-21T11:55:00.001+08:00

“The worse thing is caring about someone, wondering how they are and what they’re up to when the truth is they’ve stopped wondering about you a long time ago.”

2009-09-11T22:32:00.002+08:00

today sent justin off to the US.

after tat wen to KAP to meet eliot for breakfast before going schl for training.

after training wen vivo with loy,eliot and queen.

dinner at smoking frogs

srsly.the convo we had was srsly damn stupid.

15 mins relationship.

tat topic kinda remind me of my own past 2 relationships.

2 totally epic fail relationships.and both oso being blamed for.

sometimes i really hate ppl,telling others to grow up/stop being childish,wen they themselves are the one acting in the same way.

damn ironic.and contradicting

Just Because – I’m quiet–doesn’t mean I don’t have a lot to say.
Just Because – I appear happy–doesn’t mean everything’s okay.
Just Because – I’m sarcastic–doesn’t mean I don’t take things seriously.
Just Because – I forgive–doesn’t mean I forget.
Just Because – I don’t listen to you-doesn’t mean I don’t care.
Just Because – I’m gullible–doesn’t mean you can lie to me.
Just Because – I’m stubborn–doesn’t mean I’m not easy going.
Just Because – I don’t show my feelings–doesn’t mean I don’t have any.
Just Because – I don’t say I love you–doesn’t mean I don’t.
Just Because – I’m honest–doesn’t mean I’m outspoken.
Just Because – I’m not like you–doesn’t mean I’m weird.
Just Because – I’m unsure–doesn’t mean I’m afraid.

2009-09-08T11:01:00.002+08:00

y do i always get this.

accusing me of getting the same colour bag as you.

oh pls.

i got tat colour cos its only piece left in the shop.with the other colours out of stock.

and its on sale.

so i got it.

i'll sell it away

and use my spoilt dickies.

and wads your problem with me drinking your water.

SICK huh?

so ur tryin to say i pollute you water after i drink from ur bottle.?

are tryin to imply tat.?

who do u think you are.

at least i freaking asked you first b4 i drink.

and the bag.

u jus being very unreasonable.

especially towards me.

all the time.

i get something similar to wad u have.

u accuse me of following you.

and then say wad the hell is my problem.

actually wad is ur problem.

can't i get something i like.

ur being too much...

totally being so childish.

and self-centered.

pls keep in mind.

wad i get which somehow similar to yours.

pls.i'm not even followin you.ew.

i'm moving somewhere else.so i can release more of my anger.

2009-08-26T23:42:00.000+08:00

I love you, and through all we've been through, I'm still terrified you don't love me back.

2009-08-22T17:13:00.005+08:00

if given a chance.

i would rather run away from all this.

i would rather forget everything.

i would rather not met u at all.

i would rather not...

cos all this been way too long.and too painful.

each time i see you,it brings back everything.

and i don really expect u to come apologise to me for calling me a piece of shit.

cos u won even dare.

best i jus walk away.and not bother bout you.

i blame all this on myself.

i blame myself for loving you.so much.

y do i still like you.

tat wad i would like to know.

2009-08-20T17:48:00.002+08:00

dad's leaving for japan on sunday night.

for how long.i donno.but its for work purposes.hah.

and exams are endin soon.

2 papers down.

now left with one last paper.

i really hate this feelings.

2009-08-16T17:22:00.002+08:00

FYP phase 1 is over.period.

no on to end of module tests

tml and wed then on the 28th

den its freedom and trainings.

fri went out to watch movie.up!

went cine to eat at pastamania with mel and loy.

eliot came from his family dinner

glenn came after some recital.

saturday went schl to study.

with kth,eliot and wenxin.

studies till 7 plus,before leaving.

eliot and me ate at al amin.

totally hooked on mayday parade's jamie all over.

Where were you when I needed you most?
Why did you leave me alone?
We gave up before we gave it a chance

2009-08-12T11:02:00.002+08:00

Every Avenue's Between you and i is damn nice.

anyway.monday

went to airport to send joanne and her family off.

going back to mexico.

after that was breakfast at yakun at T3

den off to do FYP at simei.

left around 3 plus to go schl to meet the rest.

yesterday went schl for GEMs test.

wen to swim and met up with FYP mates for final part of phase 1

den met polo peeps again to study.

oh yea.swim event selection.appointed 1500m and reserved for 200 free.wts!

if u think we wouldn't last?

den ask yourself,we couldn't last cos of you.

we nv talk things out.

u feel we need to break,u break us up.

nothing said.

no talking things over.

if we had talked things through.

we could have lasted.

srsly.and u wan me to try being fren and be on talking terms

y muz i try wen u din't try at all then

its not fair to me.

anyway save the apologies for yourself

u'll nv come to do it personally.

and screw ur talkin terms and frienship

2009-08-08T10:16:00.002+08:00

y do i have to like you?

u wan to blame it on the face?

go on.

it doesn't matter if u give tat face or not.

if u wan to talk or not.don blame it on my face.

and think u expect me to give u a happy face.wen u called me a piece of shit and effed up.

and wen you are around?

and srsly.don tell me you'll see.

you say you'll apologise personally for breakingup.

where is it?

and now after insulting me.how long are u gonna take this time.

i'm sure u don even dare to come near me or talk to me.

my boxers,u still haven passed it to me.how long do u wanna take?

2009-08-04T16:46:00.006+08:00

yea.

i'm effed up

a piece of shit

what else u wan to call.go on!!

you call me all this and u wan to ask me for friendship.

who are u kidding.

Love takes hostages,
gives them pain.
gives someone the power to
hurt you again and again
oooh, but they don't care

how this sounds oh so familiar.reminds me of someone

2009-08-03T23:46:00.002+08:00

had bbq at loy's last fri

stayed over with mel,kk,shihong and kc.

kk and me tank the whole night.by watching mtv and discovery channel.

called for breakfast(macs) at 4am.

ha.

after breakfast,we all chui-ded.

me and kk slept in the livin room.

shihong,kc and mel slept in loy's room.

got a lift from loy's mom.

reached home bout 9 in the morning.laze around before heading to schl to chiong project

den to town to meet mel,loy and eliot to watch hangover..

hangover was damn epic.haha.

sunday was at church at wesley.

the place and the atmosphere was good.

at least managed to have a fresh enviroment.

2009-08-02T23:30:00.002+08:00

sometimes ppl jus wan to shoot you for the sake of it.

someone said my maturity level is low.

but hey,looks who's talking.so ur saying ur maturity level is higher than after things u did and the way u act??

i wan to leave,u ask me how it feels.you call urself a germ

den wad bout you.u did the same to me.donno how many times.

did u know how i feel??

nope i don think so.

u care bout yourself.and how u feel.

u nv spare a thot bout how ppl feel.

2009-08-01T10:13:00.002+08:00

its best we jus not talk to each other.

jus screw your idea of building tat trust.

i don wan to always see you,and my mood changes.

your presence really make things freaking awkward.

yea.i'm jealous.

so i shan't be near you.at all.

2009-07-29T22:58:00.002+08:00

guess its better i not be a bother to you.

yea.i know i'm jealous.

so it will be better with me gone.

we'll have less quarrels and stuff..

2009-07-23T22:54:00.003+08:00

i'm tired of tryin.wasting my efforts.

tryin and tryin.and not getting anywhere

i jus really donno.

guess i was really such a fool to hold on

guess i was stupid enough to believe we are gonna have another chance.

i'm jus trying to get out of vicious cycle.

guess i don wanna fall in love again.

sometimes i msg you,u don reply.

we hardly talk much.

u jus got nothing to say or jus donn wanna talk to me?

and i'm kinda tired of serving in CG.i really need a break.

maybe a different enviroment.attending another church will be nice,for awhile.

How long till my heart can love again
I tried and I tried - I don't know what else to do
How long till this broken heart mends
Will I ever be over you

2009-07-19T22:24:00.003+08:00

am really really tired now.

been having oni 7 hrs of sleep the past 2 nights.

fri went out with polo frens.

hanged out till around 1plus before going home.

got home bout 2 and manage to sleep at 3.

sat woke up at 8.breakfast with parents at causarina.

saw pastor sng eating.

den rush home and rush down to fren's house at doby for FYP

in the night was dinner buffet at some hotel to celebrate my dad's bday.

den wen out to meet mel,loy and eliot at 11 plus for supper at rail mall

chatted till 2.30 before headin home.

am i a fool?

am i jus being stupid??

to hold on to something thats impossible?

2009-07-18T01:37:00.001+08:00

super nice song.damn old but heard it on how i met your mother....

yeap.

Robin Hackett//Hard Left

Sorry Baby but its getting too much to take
I close my eyes I know my hearts about to break
I'm down on my knees tryin to pick myself up
When the battles over, seems nothins not enough

The way you do me, you know it hurts me to the bone
How you touch me, I'd be better off alone
Sayin I'm sorry till I'm blue in the face
Leaves me empty with no love left to waste

We promise to have, oh we promise to hold
How does a promise ever grow old

So listen baby, I'm gonna get back on my feer
Tuck this old shirt and wipe the crimson off my cheek
Remember these secrets were all that I kept
When I pull out this driveway and hang a Hard Left

We promise to have, oh we promise to hold
How does a promise ever grow old

2009-07-14T22:55:00.002+08:00

super tired.

okie.had so called high tea at crystal jade today with the "starbucks gossip gang",kenneth and des.

den we walked over to cold rock.ha.

we couldn't decide to eat cold rock or frolicks

in the end des,eliot and kth ate frolicks while mel,loy and me went for frolicks

we sat outside cold rock and crap all the way to 9.30.

before hitching a ride home in loy's car.

got squeezed real bad,cos des mel kth oso hitched a ride.

2009-07-10T09:45:00.003+08:00

sighs!!

really.this waiting is really fustrating.

i'm here waiting,while u go round having ur fun.

y is it have to be this way.

i really dono.

everytime i see you its jus so weird for me.

wad should i say.

u always seems to be ignoring me.

i jus dono..

i guess this whole fiasco.

a mistake.

a joke.

a laughing stock.

worst still,i'm still loving someone,who hurts time after time.

u tell me u lost trust in me.

now u tell me ur rebuilding it.

wads the point.it will nv be the same.

think bout.

trust is like a vase..but once broken,u can fix it back,but it will nv be the same.

u talk bout trust so easily,oh i'm tryin to rebuild it and stuff

"Never make someone a priority, when all they make you, is an option"

have u ever heard this sayin...??

i tried so hard for the things i did for the relationship.

all the efforts.yet,u did it 3 times.

each time,got together,u tell won happen again.

srsly,i think ur jus making me as an option.

now even as a fren.i feel i'm jus an option.

tried being a good fren by lendin a listening ear.

yet nothing.

i guess all u care is bout yourself..

but think have u ever thot bout my feelings..

but i still feel for you..

i'll nv ask for anyone but you

2009-07-02T23:38:00.002+08:00

i urk you!??

fine.den be tat way.

u can don admit tat ur talking bout me.

since u wan it like tat.so be it.

this is wad u wan.i give it to you

2009-06-30T23:48:00.003+08:00

being called a jerk is not nice.

not at all.

2009-06-28T16:44:00.004+08:00

holidays have come to an end.

exams are jus next week.

H1N1 is in the air.

ha.

but have been going schl everyday to study.

plus trainings.

you tell u think u enjoy seein me getting hurt

you tell u hate the fact u hurt me

if u are really sorry. you would have try apologise in my face.instead of behind the screen.

i guess not.u'll jus hide behind tat screen.and say sorry.

how many times u have told me u'll apologise in the face.since how long ago

"I can't believe that I stayed till today"

2009-06-10T00:19:00.002+08:00

i still stuck as where i started from.
hoping and wishing isn't getting anywhere.
i don even know wad to do.
enjoying what i have now.but its jus not easy.
enjoyin is one thing,but...
i jus donno anymore.
i really donno...

i will never for anyone else but you

2009-04-13T21:20:00.003+08:00

Take on me cover by northern kings
its damn nice.

2009-04-10T07:57:00.002+08:00

guess i'm back to posting at blogger.
livejournal is quite okie.but kinda complicated.ha.

i don understand y some girls constantly breaks up.
den while the guys will be wondering y.
while the girls goes on to find another guy.
is it for status or attention.
was talkin to a couple of frens,bout my situation.
wen we talked bout this.ha.

sometimes a goodbye could be a second chance.
or maybe for good.

2009-03-23T23:18:00.002+08:00

This prob my last post on blogger for awhile.
read this somewhere and i find it rather interesting and how true it is.

"trust is very important. That trust has to be earned. That trust is very hard to bring back if it’s lost –sometimes you can never get it back, no matter how hard you try."

2009-03-17T07:37:00.003+08:00

I'M MOVING!!

i'm sorry for everything.
u hate me tat much.i noe.
i know you will nv give us any chances.
good luck to you and your special someone

2009-03-16T21:29:00.002+08:00

went schl from church,reach bout 2.45 at the pool
but soon it started to rain.sucks man.
so waited awhile,but the rain don seems to be stoppin so changed,and went home.ha.

oh yea.mr big is back together again!!

2009-03-10T23:58:00.000+08:00

damn nice!

2009-03-07T23:54:00.002+08:00

Acoustic version of 18 days by saving abel

Acoustic version of addicted by saving abel

2009-03-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

first week at ITP was quite okie.
packed thru the hellish storeroom.
updated their super outdated logistic list which holds hundred over items.
packed closed to 1000++ folders for events held in singapore and malaysia.
shipped stuffs to other countries.
to top that off,i got my own table,laptop and redhat account at the office.
ha.
friday headed down to vivo to get myself another pair of jeans from zara.
and i'm still waiting for my confirmation of items,i'm getting from states.
2 old navy slippers.and A&F hoodie in the colour i like.
today wen schl to swim.met wif shihong.and jerome came soon after. played polo abit before starting rain cats and dogs.

2009-03-02T21:21:00.006+08:00

first day of ITP.
was actually half day.
got the call from the company in the morning,reported for at 2.
ha.
all the way at tanjong pagar.not bad eh.
was fun though.
rushed back to schl for training.
and
bintan trip was good.
sun sun and more sun.
getter darker too.
drank cocktails with family too.

james morrison//broken strings
Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

i donno.
guess u donno tat i still like you.
prob guess u are together with someone now.good luck.
sometimes it jus so hard to forgive.
i guess it will always be this way,ignoring each other

2009-02-25T23:58:00.002+08:00

i'm chionging!!
javajavajava.
anyway.last paper.den i'm free.
got my new phone today!!
rushed to vivo for the roadshow.
and my dad got a psp slim from his fren.
my dad say his fren don wan anymore.so give us.
how cool is tat!?

2009-02-25T00:05:00.002+08:00

ONE MORE PAPER!!!
AND I'M FREE!!
but really hope i don get to repeat anymore modules.
next mon,ITP starts.
and i can't decide which to get..
a&f shorts or old navy shorts?

currently hooked
neutral milk hotel!!

2009-02-23T14:31:00.002+08:00

today 2nd last paper.
don really feel like studying anymore.
can't wait till 8.10pm.tats when todays paper will be over.

sorry for everything.
i'm jus gonna wait.

2009-02-20T23:00:00.004+08:00

yayayayay!!!
maths paper is over.
T1A was really packed.
studied at fc2 before going up for exam.
now left with 2 more papers.
one on monday night,and thurs afternoon,den after tat is bintan.
hah.
gotten my attachment.
all the way at raffles.clifford point
swam today.den met wif joanna to buy colour pencils for fusion at bras brasah.
haha.
den head to raffles city.treated her ice-cream as i owe her.
den she went shopping.den took bus home.

2009-02-19T22:07:00.002+08:00

rushed home from schl jus now.
ate dinner.and went down to the airport.
to see josh off.
quite alot of ppl where there.

anyway.maths paper tml.
hoping i can pass it.somehow,i'm not panicking.
is it a bad sign??i donno.

2009-02-18T22:44:00.002+08:00

maths paper on fri.
FUSION on sat.haha.
shucks.tml will be in schl for extra lessons,den to the airport to send josh off.
fri mornin will be exam,den swimming.

pretty hooked on straigh no chaser cover of makes me wonder.

2009-02-18T09:14:00.001+08:00

Cause it's been too many days
Since I first held you
But to me it feels just like
It feels like a lifetime
I'm trying hard to re-arrange
But some say it's the hardest thing to do
But that's just too many days without you
18 days//saving abel

2009-02-17T14:05:00.004+08:00

EXAMS!!
done wif first paper.
hope i can pass it.
can't wait for next thurs.
going to bintan.
den it will be attachment during the holidays.
but haven gotten my company yet.
gonna save money
getting A&F shirt and polo tee
more threadless.
and a projectshop bag.
prob selling off my cumpler..
see how it goes.

sometimes ppl jus wan to get rid of u to fulfill their plans..

not gonna say anymore.
if u say i'm stubborn,its fine.

2009-02-15T21:31:00.003+08:00

"To some, love is a word
That they can fall into
But when they're falling out
Keeping that word is hard to do"
Warren Barfield//love is not a fight

yea.but wen we were together,have u trusted me?
i don think so.
i mean,u trusted more wad ppl have to say,den trusting in us.
and can't believe u even tot i'll go stalked u.

2009-02-14T22:47:00.001+08:00

it hurts not be trusted.
especially,wen someone u like trust a someone more,and she doesn't trust u at all.
after many years,den tell she doesn't trust u at all.
she actually....urgh!

James 1:19
Everyone should be quick to listen. But they should be slow to speak. They should be slow to get angry.

2009-02-12T21:38:00.004+08:00

another day of studying.
went schl to meet rach chew after her financial management lesson.ate at kfc
before headin to lib to study.
studied quite alot,surprisingly.
den headed to t21 for extra lesson.
mom is leaving for JB tml,for some retreat.
hoping to get my new phone this weekend.
stuck between E71 and F480

last person on earth u wan talk to...?
well u get wad u wan
thanks for the accusations

2009-02-10T23:21:00.002+08:00

okie.its really bored wen u spent time at home jus studying.
anyway.went schl to swim today.and had one lesson today.
before heading down to national library to meet jerome to study.ha.
he was late as usual.
anyway browsed thru my ipod,and decided to tune to emerson drive.
was hooked on them quite some time back.but after listenin to the new songs by them.
i got hooked all over again.hah.
urghh.gotta find their cd.

2009-02-09T23:45:00.002+08:00

i got birds in my ears
and a devil on my shoulder....
study week.tryin to chiong as much as possible.seriously not wantin to forward any damn shitty modules.as the course itself is crap.
3 modules in one sem and is all core modules.sheesh.

next to worry is to finding a suitable company for attachment.thinking of working at ikea or some shop in funan.i donno.have to get it done before exam starts.

i need to save if i really wanna zoom off to australia to study either at murdoch or UWA...
there's still time to think bout it and save.or NZ is not bad place too.ha

2009-02-07T10:45:00.003+08:00

have been thinking
if i ever quit schl now,i go army,get over with army,den can go do something else,and never go back into IT.
but will be a waste if i quit now.i donno man.
prob complete poly,go army and start with something new,something i have interest in.
have been eyein,crimiology,theology and sports science at murdoch.
architecture at UWA or sports science at PSB.
but really hoping to do theology at murdoch,prob is moo-lah.
i really dono.really wanna get away man.

anyway.friday.
shitty day.call back by teacher 3 times.saw someone.
shan't explain.
but met joanna at clementi.ha.
wanted me to accompany her to JP to collect some photos.ahaha.
walk around,went home,and went to jireh's house,where i met her again.hah

2009-02-05T22:28:00.003+08:00

i want to GIVE UP!!
i donno how i can go through another year doing this shit!!
its too much,its not something i'm interested in.its jus something tats pulling me down!!
slogged my ass off,doing java,all the way to 12 midnight,on tues.
den from 9.30 to 5 on wed.
i dono wad to do.
all i'm feeling now,is giving up.

Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me

i wish u were here.

2009-02-01T17:14:00.001+08:00

youre just this one nightmare!

2009-01-30T19:00:00.000+08:00

damn nice.
faith like that by jonah33

2009-01-29T18:57:00.002+08:00

chinese new year!
SUCKS!
spent my time at relative house doing up my project.hah.
den back to schl yesterday.
overslept,so din really go to schl,but i went to schl to swim.
was suppose to go out wif someone,but she had something on.
so wen PS to check out my phone,but the store was close,so headed to the new revamp trumpet praise.ha.
got myself 2 cds.
chris sligh(the american idol dude)
and some band called RED.hah.
saw this damn nice book called,"changed my attitude" by donno who.
prob i should get it.

anthony evans//whatever i can't erase
Whatever I can't erase
Whatever I can't undo
When I can't find the faith
To make it through
You open up your hands of love
And cover with your grace
Whatever I can't undo
Whatever I can't erase

2009-01-22T09:16:00.006+08:00

i wan to be left alone for awhile.
at the mean time,i'm considering of moving to somewhere else to blog.i dono.jus considering.

2009-01-18T22:59:00.002+08:00

i think its best we stay away from each other.
so things wouldn't get any worse.
i'm jus sick of everything,this is one thing i'm afraid of.
heck,u wouldn't care.
i'm sorry.after the sermon today.
i ought to say i'm sorry.i forgive for the things u did.
but its jus hard to really let go,u really lost the trust i have for you.tats all
its hard.

i'm super tired.
NUS GREAT EASTERN WATERPOLO,is taking its toll on my body.

2009-01-14T23:51:00.002+08:00

Walk by faith//jeremy camp

this is a live vid of him and him sharing his testimonal after his first wife died of cancer.really true bout the last part he said.

this wan will be the acoustic version.super nice.

2009-01-07T23:29:00.002+08:00

mother cheesefries chicken backside mcnuggets!!!!
NUS-GREAT EASTERN WATERPOLO CHALLENGE is jus next tues!!
i was expect like end of the month or somehting.crap!
everything is so damn rush.met up wif nus waterpolo team today for breifing.
so many things to be done.
the start to 2009 jus really sucks lahz.
results for mst sucks.
project equals GGxxxx
and doing things i shoudn't be doing.
well its jus me.doing thing which ppl left behind.all the time!

but end 2008 was fun.
youth camp,cambodia trip was jus totally beyond fun(no words can describe),christmas,ccis,sentosa,melaka.ha.
prob is best is rebuilding frenship wid a certain person.i shan't say much.

2009-01-04T23:12:00.001+08:00

leave me alone.
and go to where ur suppose to be.
things will still be the same.
u wasted my time and effort

2008-12-29T15:43:00.003+08:00

is it fair for me to go thru all this? i donno
being fooled/lied to time and time again.
this all seems dejavu.
guess u'll nv understand a thing.

ignore or not to ignore??
frens or not to be frens??

why do i love you??
hope one day u'll understand

2008-12-27T12:22:00.000+08:00

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

2008-12-18T00:19:00.002+08:00

The power of love - lincoln brewster feat. Darlene Zschech
I will live to carry your compassion
To a world that's broken
To be your hands and feet
I will give with the life that i've been given
And go beyond religion
To see the world be changed
By the power of your name

MISSION TRIP!!
all in all.it was good.new friendships,exisiting friendship becomes stronger.and ultimately,the ppl there.they are willing to learn and stuff.and now,i'm mission trip sick.hhah.
i totally enjoyed everything.

2008-11-30T21:37:00.002+08:00

Hinder//Without you

I just wanna be alone tonight
I just wanna take a little breather
Cause lately all we do is fight
And every time it cuts me deeper

Cause somethings changed
Youve been acting so strange
And its taking its toll on me
Its safe to say that Im ready to let you leave

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, Im seein myself so differently
I didnt wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought id say
Im fine
Without you

Called you up cause its been long enough
And you said that you were so much better
We have done a lot of growing up
We were never meant to be together

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, Im seein myself so differently
I didnt wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought id say
Im fine,
Without you
Without you
Without you
Without you
I just wanna be alone tonight,
I just wanna take a little breather.

2008-11-28T20:57:00.002+08:00

if only u did care.
if only u hold on
if only u didn't give up so easily jus cos of tat setback
if only u listen u to wad u feel and no get influence by wad others say
if only .....

but in the end u have To build me up and tear me down,Like an old abandoned house.
everything was fine.though there was abit of problems but can't we sit down and discuss it over.
does breaking up ur only option??are u tryin to get rid of me.i donno.u hold the answers.
all u can do is hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad,
But in the end I'd do it again to relive what we had.

telling u delete my number,jus to save our relationship but in the end,where it ends up
u spoiling everything.jus cos u are eager to break up.

this is where hate and love collide!

2008-11-25T22:33:00.000+08:00

Sunrise Avenue//Fairytale Gone Bad

Fairytale Gone Bad (Acoustic) - Sunrise Avenue

2008-11-22T23:50:00.002+08:00

exam is bout a week away.can't wait for it to be over.
after tat will be a big rush.
straight after exams will be youth camp,den one day rest will be mission trip.
oh yea.on wed,had training.damn fun.
training was kinda slack but super funny.tat lifesaver girl came,and i finally got to know her name.ha.
but oh well.jus an eyecandy.

2008-11-19T22:51:00.002+08:00

OMG!!
i'm so hooked on jason mraz live vids on youtube.
acoustic version too.

life is wonderful

I'm yours

2008-11-17T23:58:00.002+08:00

had training today.
super tired.hah.
2 girls join,lynette and liz(whatever her name is)
anyway,they tried first hand being in a game.
well was good experience for them.

yay.got my david cook album!!right from the net.hah
yes.i'm a pirate.
i'm so hook on Lynyrd Skynyrd's free bird!!

If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be travelling on, now,
cause theres too many places Ive got to see
But, if I stayed here with you, girl
Things just couldnt be the same
cause Im as free as a bird now
And this bird you can not change
Lord knows, I cant change

2008-11-16T21:21:00.002+08:00

Fri
no schl today!!
the nation needs my lectuerer.
so from 8 to 12 no lessons.
wen to schl early to swim,and do some waterpolo drills.
den wen for PEP before going back to the pool the join some of the juniors.
saw tat life-saver girl again.hah.
anyway,had kfc fro lunch,den took train wif 2 of the juniors.
den they were checking out this whole bunch of touch rug girls from donno where.all wearing yellow tee.
2 of them alighted at the same stop as me,and one took the same bus home.
was in the bus wen she came up to talk to me.hah.
Sat
sentosa outing.
wen early to book space but totally forgot there's sentosa-MOE beach volleyball challenge.
so lazed around until the others came.
saw jireh's fren,and was contemplated whether to join them or not
went back to vivo wif the rest and had carl's junior.ha.
wen home,den head to hospital,cos my grandma got admitted(dad's side)
my grandma damn cute.she's like damn scared of going hospital but when she was there,she was looking around like some smal kid.haha.

jus holding on....

2008-11-14T22:04:00.001+08:00

To you,
i'm sorry for everthing.i know i'm not good enough.
SORRY.

2008-11-13T16:18:00.002+08:00

tell me
how can a person suddenly stop loving someone??
is either tat person,is foolin around or wasn't serious bout the whole relationship or the other party did something wrong.
so which is it??

i so deep in this shit hole,i can't get out.
all thanks to you

2008-11-06T10:21:00.001+08:00

well...

When your love is not needed anymore,

you give it to someone else

But there will always be some that will that love put aside,

jus for you.

oh well..

AND I'M TIRED

2008-11-04T23:12:00.002+08:00

i jus hate everything thats going on now.
first.relationship crap.
then ur dad comes nag at you,wen u forget to do something like take out the trash.and worst still wen u try to shut him up.he changes subject and switches to ur studies.WTF.says ur not studying,oni how to play computer wen u come back.like huh,can't u see tat i've my lecture slides on my screen.i hate it wen my parent judge me by my appearance,and not wad i'm trying to do.den always comparing me to so and so.worst still,ur tired from spending whole day in schl.
life is such...
sometimes i wish i din exist.

2008-11-03T11:37:00.001+08:00

everything is jus my FAULT
i won bother u no more

2008-11-02T23:19:00.004+08:00

geez man.
gotta thank peiying for tat bday present.
even though my bday is like over aeons ago.
anyway its the thought tat counts.
totally like the miniature domo plushie.haha.
life sucks seriously after i met u
lif is such.
i wish i was DEAD
so i won face u over and over again

Now that it's all said and done
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me

2008-11-01T23:21:00.003+08:00

Sentosa today!!
ahaha.
waited for josh to pick me up.then took our time to get to sentosa.
then wen to look for jireh and his ex poly mates.
helped them set up the portable court.
played volleyball one game after another.
damn fun.
left sentosa bout 7 plus.
had KFC at harbour front center.
before heading home.