I love you, and through all we've been through, I'm still terrified you don't love me back.
isaac
if given a chance.
i would rather run away from all this.
i would rather forget everything.
i would rather not met u at all.
i would rather not...
cos all this been way too long.and too painful.
each time i see you,it brings back everything.
and i don really expect u to come apologise to me for calling me a piece of shit.
cos u won even dare.
best i jus walk away.and not bother bout you.
i blame all this on myself.
i blame myself for loving you.so much.
y do i still like you.
tat wad i would like to know.
isaac
dad's leaving for japan on sunday night.
for how long.i donno.but its for work purposes.hah.
and exams are endin soon.
2 papers down.
now left with one last paper.
i really hate this feelings.
isaac
FYP phase 1 is over.period.
no on to end of module tests
tml and wed then on the 28th
den its freedom and trainings.
fri went out to watch movie.up!
went cine to eat at pastamania with mel and loy.
eliot came from his family dinner
glenn came after some recital.
saturday went schl to study.
with kth,eliot and wenxin.
studies till 7 plus,before leaving.
eliot and me ate at al amin.
totally hooked on mayday parade's jamie all over.
Where were you when I needed you most?
Why did you leave me alone?
We gave up before we gave it a chance
Why did you leave me alone?
We gave up before we gave it a chance
isaac
Every Avenue's Between you and i is damn nice.
anyway.monday
went to airport to send joanne and her family off.
going back to mexico.
after that was breakfast at yakun at T3
den off to do FYP at simei.
left around 3 plus to go schl to meet the rest.
yesterday went schl for GEMs test.
wen to swim and met up with FYP mates for final part of phase 1
den met polo peeps again to study.
oh yea.swim event selection.appointed 1500m and reserved for 200 free.wts!
if u think we wouldn't last?
den ask yourself,we couldn't last cos of you.
we nv talk things out.
u feel we need to break,u break us up.
nothing said.
no talking things over.
if we had talked things through.
we could have lasted.
srsly.and u wan me to try being fren and be on talking terms
y muz i try wen u din't try at all then
its not fair to me.
anyway save the apologies for yourself
u'll nv come to do it personally.
and screw ur talkin terms and frienship
isaac
y do i have to like you?
u wan to blame it on the face?
go on.
it doesn't matter if u give tat face or not.
if u wan to talk or not.don blame it on my face.
and think u expect me to give u a happy face.wen u called me a piece of shit and effed up.
and wen you are around?
and srsly.don tell me you'll see.
you say you'll apologise personally for breakingup.
where is it?
and now after insulting me.how long are u gonna take this time.
i'm sure u don even dare to come near me or talk to me.
my boxers,u still haven passed it to me.how long do u wanna take?
isaac
yea.
i'm effed up
a piece of shit
what else u wan to call.go on!!
you call me all this and u wan to ask me for friendship.
who are u kidding.
Love takes hostages,
gives them pain.
gives someone the power to
hurt you again and again
oooh, but they don't care
gives them pain.
gives someone the power to
hurt you again and again
oooh, but they don't care
how this sounds oh so familiar.reminds me of someone
isaac
had bbq at loy's last fri
stayed over with mel,kk,shihong and kc.
kk and me tank the whole night.by watching mtv and discovery channel.
called for breakfast(macs) at 4am.
ha.
after breakfast,we all chui-ded.
me and kk slept in the livin room.
shihong,kc and mel slept in loy's room.
got a lift from loy's mom.
reached home bout 9 in the morning.laze around before heading to schl to chiong project
den to town to meet mel,loy and eliot to watch hangover..
hangover was damn epic.haha.
sunday was at church at wesley.
the place and the atmosphere was good.
at least managed to have a fresh enviroment.
isaac
sometimes ppl jus wan to shoot you for the sake of it.
someone said my maturity level is low.
but hey,looks who's talking.so ur saying ur maturity level is higher than after things u did and the way u act??
i wan to leave,u ask me how it feels.you call urself a germ
den wad bout you.u did the same to me.donno how many times.
did u know how i feel??
nope i don think so.
u care bout yourself.and how u feel.
u nv spare a thot bout how ppl feel.
isaac
its best we jus not talk to each other.
jus screw your idea of building tat trust.
i don wan to always see you,and my mood changes.
your presence really make things freaking awkward.
yea.i'm jealous.
so i shan't be near you.at all.
isaac